My huge fear.

I been a OB nurse for a year, a Neonatal Intensive Care Unit nurse for a month now.. so no one can blame me if Im so afraid of getting pregnant. I've seen a baby with no skull, a baby whose as small as my palm..I've heard a hundred cry of women giving birth, I've seen the pain in their faces. I know how hard it is to be pregnant and specially to give birth. It scares me. Can I handle that? I love babies. I really do. But just the thought of giving birth makes me nauseous. Can I just adopt? Haha. Of course I wanna have my own kids, but Idont know if I am strong enough for that. I hope so.