To someone who use to tell people I'm her daughter.

Remind me.

Sometimes I forget how much I love you.

I became too preoccupied with everything that's going on with my life that I fail to remember your importance.

I neglect your effort, I cease to consider your feelings.

Then in an instance, I felt that there's somethings missing..

there is a hollow space in my heart,

I stop and think what seems to be lacking.

Then I look at you.

When was the last time that I kiss you.

When was the last time that I glance at you.

When was the last time that I told you that I love you.

You're always there, waiting for me.

Patiently standing by.

Hanging unto me even though sometimes I became lost at my own world..

sometimes I became oblivious of your existence.

Then you smile at me.

It reminded me of everything that I feel for you.

How can I be so stupid.

I took you for granted again.

For days, we haven't had a normal conversation.

I'm always mad, I'm always busy.

But you never left. You hold unto me.

You tried to understand me.

Thank you,

for loving me unconditionally,

for not giving up on me.

And if I became foolish again,

I'm giving you permission to kiss me until I'm out of breath.

Cause I'm sure it'll jog my memory..

Remind me of my feelings for you.

Cause I love you like I never loved anyone before.

Nurse May.

Sorry sa pic, eto lang kuha ko today e.

Yes,first day. Nurse ulet ako for the next 3 months.
I was given a chance na magtrabaho sa Rizal Provincial Hospital.
Mejo ok na yun, kesa naman sa wala diba.

Sa NICU ako naassign, di ko masyadong gusto pero atleast bagong experience.

Babies.Babies and Babies. I love babies kaso doble ang selan.
Kailangan precise lahat ng ginagawa mo kundi konting pagkakamali e buhay ang kapalit.
Though ganun naman sa lahat ng pasyente, pero ang baby kasi e di naman makakapagsalita.
Kahit may masakit na, wala kang kaidi-idea.
Kaya goodluck na lang samen.

Excited ako at kinakabahan.
Antagal kong natengga. Kaya ko pa ba?
Sana. Dapat pala. Dapat talaga.

Temporomandibular disorder what?

Tinanong ko yung pinsan ko kung bakit nagki-click yung jaw ko whenever I try to open my mourth.Sabi nya baka daw TMJ problem. Syempre ako, ano yun? Sabi nya sa joint ng jaw. Its a bit scary kasi pwede daw akong mag lock jaw, which means I wont able to close my mouth. Arhg, I'm scared and pissed. Wala akong pera para dito. Hay. Bakit ba may ganun pa. There's a chance daw na kailangan kong magbrace or splint. Ayooooko. I find people with braces cute but for me? A big NO. Feeling ko di bagay saken saka feeling ko e di komportable? I dont know, I'm just not fond of it. Pero if I dont have a choice, well, there's nothing I can do. For now, I need to know muna kung anu ba talagang mali saken.
Fingers crossed na hindi ko kailangan ng mga expensive treatment kasi I'm still unemployed:(
Pero carry lang yan. Kakayanin:)

"Hard times are sometimes blessings in disguise. "

Lost.

I'm the kind of person who doesn't know what I want.
I am already a registered nurse, but sometimes, I ask myself..Do I really want this job?
Most of the time, the answer is no. Sometimes, I realized I already became attached to it.




Then I fell in love with baking. I studied at TESDA to learn how to do it. I was obsessed. I baked a lot for a very long time, well, while I'm not working. It also became a business. Me and my cousin decided to  open up an online shop. It is called Sweet Creations. We make cakes,cupcakes, cakeballs and everything that we can. It was a lot of fun. Though because of some issues, we started to be inactive with the shop. But here are some of the products that we made.

I also sell things online like beauty products and fashionable items. And I'm  fond of it. I feel accomplished whenever I see my client happy and my sales is good.

Now, I still question myself. What do I really want to do? Being entrepreneur sounds good to me, I also want to try the pastry and baking world, but how about my career? I studied 4 years and took a hard core exam just to be nurse. There were times that I feel that being a nurse is somehow rewarding because it gives me a chance to help people. Its exhausting but at the same time you'll get use to it and start enjoying it.

I'm 24 and still lost. Its a bit scary but I'm taking my time. I'll do it, all at once, while I can:)

Fresh start?

My God. I've been planning this fresh start for a long time at wala namang nangyayari.
Why do I always procrastinate? I hate it.

I do need a goal, and a time frame.

I WILL BE IN DUBAI TO WORK AS A NURSE BEFORE 2015 ENDS. NO EXCUSES.

Here I go again.

A big disappointment. Yun yung feeling ko. Di ako sanay ng ganito. Since I was a kid, I am very competitive, kailangan laging winner, an achiever. Pero eto ako ngayon, almost 24, a registered nurse, earning a minimun wage, at ni wala pang maipagmamalaki. It sucks. I hate this feeling. Pero ganun talaga. Somehow, kasalanan ko din siguro..tamad ako, mahina ang loob, takot sa failure, takot sa rejection. I am trying my best to overcome that, pero ang hirap. There are times na I just breakdown and cry. Kasi parang walang nangyayari, kasi parang walang natutupad sa pangarap ko. 

Pero ano bang magagawa nun? Wala. Tsk. I am a big loser.

Pagbukas ko ng instagram, finafollow ko yung LORDPOST. Sabi dun, wag daw maging hopeless, kasi may plano si Lord.  I just have to wait for His perfect time. Lahat ng nangyayari, may dahilan sya, magtiwala lang at maniwala. Sana nga. Sana talaga.

Why?

Di ako showy na tao. Di masyadong nagpapakita ng emosyon. Di masyadong open sa totoong nararamdaman o naiisip. Pero there are some midnights when I tend to pour my heart out. I need to vent and theres no one to listen. So here I go,coming back to blogging world.