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I saw a post about tumblr (forgot who wrote it but I liked it) and I thought I also share mine. I've been on tumblr for a quite long time now..and I love it there. Though I don't make personal post there because my brother is following me and I'm not really comfortable for him to see my unending rant about life and everything else. I always reblog awesome stuff and sometimes I also make some typos, let me share you a few...

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Remind me.

Sometimes I forget how much I love you.

I became too preoccupied with everything that's going on with my life that I fail to remember your importance.

I neglect your effort, I cease to consider your feelings.

Then in an instance, I felt that there's somethings missing..

there is a hollow space in my heart,

I stop and think what seems to be lacking.

Then I look at you.

When was the last time that I kiss you.

When was the last time that I glance at you.

When was the last time that I told you that I love you.

You're always there, waiting for me.

Patiently standing by.

Hanging unto me even though sometimes I became lost at my own world..

sometimes I became oblivious of your existence.

Then you smile at me.

It reminded me of everything that I feel for you.

How can I be so stupid.

I took you for granted again.

For days, we haven't had a normal conversation.

I'm always mad, I'm always busy.

But you never left. You hold unto me.

You tried to understand me.

Thank you,

for loving me unconditionally,

for not giving up on me.

And if I became foolish again,

I'm giving you permission to kiss me until I'm out of breath.

Cause I'm sure it'll jog my memory..

Remind me of my feelings for you.

Cause I love you like I never loved anyone before.

Happy birthday Babe:)

Its my loves 24th birthday.

I'm broke but I tried my very best to make it special. So here's a 300 pesos celebration I prepare for him.

Yey to this UFC TIPID Pack. Its only 69 pesos. It already has Pasta and Spaghetti sauce. I just bought additional ingredients like garlic and onion, corned beef, 1 piece of jumbo hotdog and cheese. 

 It was my first time to cook spaghetti and I was happy with the result. He also loved it. Well, he love everything I cook. Maybe he just love me too much to complain:)

 Here's my spaghetti with love.

Then I prepared a special movie night for him.

I set up our living room to look cozy, I hung some lights around the room, lit candles, put some balloons and find a good movie in the laptop.

I completed it with pizza and popcorn.

And instead of wine or champagne, I bought our favorite milk tea for our drink.

He loved it. He was touched by the effort, cause I wasn't usually like this. I love seeing him happy, it also makes me happy. Its becoming obvious how he's changing me because I'm starting to learn how to express my feelings and I am no longer afraid to make an effort because I know he's worth it. 

I love you baby. Happy birthday.

21 month.

Of course I get scared.

What if one day you'll wake up and realized how stupid it is to be with me.

I don't deserve you.

I know that.

But I want you.

You're the very opposite of me.

Your kind, I'm not.

You're hardworking, I'm lazy as cat.

You're calm, I'm harsh.

You're sweet, I'm cold.

Your just perfect.

For me, you are.

I still wonder what did you see in me.

Why are so in love with me? I cannot really comprehend it.

I am not that special, I'm not even beautiful. 

But you treat me as if I am. 

I have a huge attitude problem but you never lose patient with me.

I cant even understand myself but you seem to accept every bit of me.

How did you do that?

How did you made me feel so loved that I started to love myself a little bit more too?

How did you made me see that there's also good side of me?

How did you embrace even the worst version of me?

I know how hard it is to love me. That's why I'm scared. 

But you never fail to remind me, that I shouldn't be.

I use to be cynical about love,

but you bring back my faith in it.

Please bear with me.

Cause I love you.

I want to be a better version of myself because of you.

Happy 21 month babe♥

The Caf Express | Maria Leonora Teresa

Sundate with babe.

Dahil day off nya, I let him sleep until afternoon. Tanghali na kame nakaalis. 

Sa Sta. Lucia Grand Mall kame pumunta. 
We ate lunch at The Caf Express. Grabe, Php149 lang, buffet na. I wasn't expecting too much kasi nga mura lang sya. Wala pa masyadong tao ng dumating kame.

Nagustuhan lang namen kasi unlimited rice. Everytime na kakain kame, 

yun lage ang hanap namen cause we both love to eat.

Ang menu nila: Menudo, fried chicken, Kare-kare, lumpia and more.

I cant say na nadis-appoint ako. Di ko talaga inexpect na sobrang masasarapan ako sa food,
with its price, parang imposible e. Pero okay naman, di na masama.
Though sobrang liit ng drinks na free, na kinailangan nameng umorder na additional drinks,
nabusog naman kame, yun ang importante. I wasn't impress by the food, but it wasn't that bad either.

Tamang-tama lang sa gutom pero nagtitipid :)

Rate: 6/10

After lunch, we decided to watch a movie. His turn to choose one, and he chose 

Maria Leonora Teresa.

I'm not really fond of watching horror movies, matatakutin kasi ako.

 Pero with a little pilit, nag-agree na din ako sa choice nya. 

Its about 3 parents na sabay-sabay namatayan ng anak due to bus accident.

A psychiatrist gave them dolls which looks like their kids, para daw makatulong sa pagmomourn.

It sure help para makarecover sila until magstart na ang mga kakaibang kaganapan sa buhay nila dahil sa doll. May mga secreto pala silang pilit inilihim. Nakaraan na kadugtong ng kasalukuyan nila.

Yun. It wasn't that scary. Medyo nakakagulat, pero di yung tipong mapapatili ka. 

Pero may story. Di lang basta nananakot. Maganda din yung kwento.

Yung effects, carry na. Aminin man naten o hindi, di pa gaanong kaeksperto ang Pilipino sa mga ganun.

All in all, ok naman sya. Magagaling ang artista, in fairness.

Rate: 7/10

Our date ended well. Syempre, dinner sa bahay, kwetuhan. Cuddle and stuff. 

Ika nga nya, kahit saan basta kasama ka, siguradong masaya.

♥

Pigging out.

Yesterday was my boyfriend's free day, so as usual we had our movie marathon  + pigging out date.

Its my favorite kind of date because I can cuddle with him, talk about everything and of course, he always stuffed me with food.(He knows how foodie I am)

Pepero ! One of my favorite. 

My brother used to give his girlfriend one of this so I got curious and tried it, 

and from then on, I can't get enough of it.

Its a pretzel stick dipped in chocolate and almond. Ahhhh..its heavenly.

 Its always my pasalubong from boyfie:)

This Hungarian sausage sandwich. It was tasty and really big. I forgot that my jaw still hurts when I bought this. Though, I still manage to devour it with numerous tiny bites :)

Barbecue! Its always on our what to eat list. Simply because it delicious and easy to find, there's a lot of Ihaw-ihaw stall in our place. 

Balut, a boiled, fertilized duck egg. Its our favorite street food. It looks disgusting but definitely flavorful. Sipping the amniotic fluid from small hole that you made in the balut is the first part. It taste like chicken soup. Next is the yellow part which tastes like any egg yolk, just softer. And of course, the chick, well, you gotta try it to understand why it is so delectable. Me and boyfie never ate just one balut, we always go for more. Yes, thats how delish it is.

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I am so damn lucky to have A as a boyfriend. He doesn't care how much I eat, he spoiled me, he remembers what food I love, and he always try to satisfy my cravings. Simple things like this makes me happy.  I don't know what he sees in me, but I'm thankful. 

“People who love to eat are always the best people.” – Julia Child. 

20 months ♥

Its been 20 months since I've decided to give us a chance. I was hesitant at first, afraid that it will be just like my past failed relationships.  I was always so cynical about love, I never believed in it. Maybe because I came from a broken family and I witnessed a lot of heartbreaks. Honestly, even though we're already together, my mind always wonder when will you leave me or get tired of my temper. You get mad whenever I ask you to tell me if you don't love me anymore, assuring me that it'll never happen. And as days goes by, I begun to believe it. You don't just tell me how much you love me, you also show it. Every single day, you proved to me that this isn't just one of those silly love affair, its for real and its for keep. I cant remember when did I start believing, believing in us, and believing in love. I'd been in few relationship, but I never felt this way. I never trusted anyone wholeheartedly. I never plan my future with anyone else, except with you.
What I want to say is... you're different. This is different.You showed me that if I open my heart and bring down the wall that I built, I'll be happier.You made me fall in love. You made me believe in forever again. 

The one that got away.

I'm happy. He's perfect. He makes me happy.
But there were times that I thought of you.
There were so many what if's.

I don't know if I really fell in love with you or I just fell in love with our memories.
Those times when we talk almost every minute of everyday.
I can still remember how you made me laugh, or how you gave me butterflies.
You're sweet, but at the same time, you're a jerk.
I was really into you, though I know its wrong, because you're not mine.
How could you do that? You made me feel that I was the most especial girl even though I know that you're taken. I still cannot comprehend how stupid I was because I let you come closer.

Yes, I almost fell in love with you, I never admit it, but I knew I was falling. That's the reason why I start avoiding you. I remember missing you so much, but I force myself not to communicate with you.

Its been awhile now. Two years? I don't know, I lost count. There were times that I asked myself, what if I let you in? Would you really choose me over her? What if I didn't stay away? What if I grabbed the chance to be with you when you two broke up ? I guess I'll never answer that.

But it was a blessing in disguise. Because I met him. By choosing to let you go, I come across with the most amazing person I can ever be with.
Yes, I loved our memories, but I loved him more now. Yes, I still remember you once in a while but he made me realized that I made a right choice.

I hope you're happy now..cause I am.

Goodbye B.